I Love You Twelve

I wish I could explain why I have been missing the past few days. Five days. (It’s actually been since the 31st of December but, whatever.) I also wish that I could say that I didn’t miss blogging. But that would be a huge lie. I almost gave in the other day to just post a video or something. Anything. But for some reason I just couldn’t do it. “I need a few more days,” I told myself. And I suppose that I did…but I sure did miss typing on here…even though the wordpress typing box is currently only allowing me to type in 1/3 of the typing box and it is annoying me.

I haven’t really written a legit entry since I wrote about Stormy. So we have a lot of catching up to do, I suppose. Prepare yourself for this to be a massive entry.

The first two days of 2012 I spent at Disney. Jessica was in town so Andrew, Rachel, and I played in the parks with her. Rachel is actually here for a couple months to get her seasonal hours in at Disney.

I honestly couldn’t have asked for a better day one and day two of this year. It was full of laughs and tickles and hugs. Happiness.

Especially because the days after day one and day two have been extremely weird and I’ve been in this stupid funk.

I have literally had four meltdowns within a seven day time period. And this guy has put up with it and you all should give him major props for that because I’m pretty stubborn and terrible when I’m having a meltdown. He has honestly been there to listen to me and be all, “Seriously, what the heck is wrong with you?!” and get me to calm down. Because he is awesome. :) He’s really good at getting my perspective back in line.

(Also, if you spin in the teacups really fast and try to take photos…it’s one of the funniest things ever.)

I’m probably going to pick up some shifts in Fantasyland really soon. Hopefully by the end of this month.

I didn’t really make resolutions this year. I don’t think I ever really do. I have my bucket list and I’m just fine working towards that and crossing off things and adding on to it. Katie and I still have our blog project, but the year didn’t really start off like either of us planned so it’s on a short hold for now. By short, I mean, it’ll hopefully start up by the end of this month. I do plan on joining a gym though, but really only for the elliptical. When I was a teenager and I got stressed out I would run (I guess?) on the elliptical for an hour or so and it would help and I miss that.

Felicia was here, also. I had dinner with her, her boyfriend, and some of their friends one night. I also spent, like, five hours talking to Alysse and I’m probably in denial that she is moving back to Michigan really soon.

I really love my new job. I seriously love the entire family. They’re so fun and full of life. I don’t really feel like it’s work, because I just love being around them. I enjoy driving the kids places and I love talking to Shannon. I really feel like God specifically placed me in their family and I am really excited to be in their lives and have them as a part of mine. And I have stories, but I’m saving them for a little later.

Last Saturday Bekah and I visited Lindsey at Disney. It was great seeing her. I miss her a lot and definitely don’t get to spend enough time with her anymore. I look forward to our discussions on Sundays about Once Upon a Time. Because she, along with Janice and Chad, has theories about the show and the storyline. Lindsey and Janice (and I’d say Chad but if he reads this he will deny it…) and I constantly spazz out about it. It’s so fun.

And speaking of Bekah– she deserves an award for constantly listening to me freak out via text messaging all day long. If you think I am exaggerating, ask her, because I’m definitely not exaggerating. I love her beyond words.

I’ve been spending a lot of time watching How I Met Your Mother. I am not really sure what it is about it, but it always cheers me up. It’s kind of funny because Alysse and I started watching it at the exact same time without knowing it– and both of us have had the exact same reaction about it. I think it just gives us some source of hope for the future and the unknown, because we both struggle with time control.

And that, dear friends, is how you take a proper ride photo at Disney World.

I hope the new year has been treating everyone well so far! I still haven’t given up. I am still determined that 2012 is my year. I’m letting all the bad stuff detox and then I’m going from there. I think I’ve just been overwhelmed because a lot has changed the past few weeks for me. But my hope is never-ending, even in the midst of meltdowns.